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Some Day I Will Soar With The Angels
Some day I will soar with the angels
What a beautiful day that will be
To look at the sky and see rainbows
Coming from heaven for me
Some day I will soar with the angels
Pain will at last finally cease
You will take me away from this sorrow
To a place full of beauty and peace
Some day I will soar with the angels
My tears will be all washed away
Sunshine and blue skies will greet me
And you will be with me each day
Some day I will soar with the angels
No longer will life hold this grief
A magical place, known as heaven
Will erase this most terrible thief
Someday I will soar with the angels
To glide through the stars in the night
Feel the love that surrounds me
In the beautiful celestial light
Some day I will soar with the angels
My spirit will then be set free
To join with my heavenly angel
Together again, you and me
IM SO TIRED
I'm so tired of crying
because you're in another place.
I'm so tired of drying
these sad tears from my sad face.
I'm so tired of denying
that you're gone away from here.
I'm so tired of implying
that your spirit is very near.
I'm so tired of trying
to understand this awful pain.
I'm so tired of flying
to that place that keeps me sane.
I'm so tired of dying
over and over again each day.
I'm so tired of sighing
because nothing will be okay.
I'm so tired of buying
things you'll never get to use.
I'm so tired of shying
away from others cruel abuse.
I'm so tired of prying
for answers from my lonely soul.
I'm so tired of eying
all that used to make me whole.
I'm so tired of lying
to myself to make it through.
I'm so tired of spying
into dreams to hear from you.
I'm so tired of defying
death that just won't seem to stay.
I'm so tired of supplying
no reason why you went away.
I'm so tired of crying
because you're in another place.
I'm so tired of drying
these sad tears from my sad face.
Yesterdays Sorrow
As I sit quietly in the morning
all of life's pain rushes in without warning
you were taken as if by thief
left me here with all this grief
Each day brings back yesterdays sorrow
As it will continue through all my tomorrows
Sadness that has filled this heart
as it has from the very start
Life's joys will all now be tainted
I will wear a mask as if it is painted
Smiles seen on the outside
will cover this pain I have learned to hide
Those around me do not know
for I no longer will show
The tears that are still here
that will remain through each year
This pain that is hidden
almost as if it is forbidden
For we should not admit
that we will never be over it
Those of us that walk this road
that life has tragically bestowed
Know of what I speak thereof
this terrible loss of a special love
A Life Sentence
A life sentence without a reprieve
A life sentence forever to grieve
To spend my life longing for what cannot be...
As long as I'm here there is no place to flee
A life sentence that will cause many tears
To be continued for all of my years
Wake to another day filled with lost hope
A life sentence of trying to cope
A life sentence to feel betrayed
By a life that was taken one terrible day
To try to live on imprisoned by me
No escaping this sentence... no place to be free
a life sentence of sleepless nights
Nightmares that won't disappear with the lights
No place to go, no place to hide
A life sentence that lives on inside
A life sentence of heartache and pain
Although I may hide it, it still does remain
A life sentence without a reprieve
a life sentence forever to grieve
Mother, My Mother Oh mother, my mother, I touch your tears Invisible fingers, soothing your skin I know you think of me
so often In the day and in the night. Going into an empty room Knowing I am in you heart and in your soul, I shall always
be, For you gave so unselfishly. you created such a world for me A world of laughter, of love, of sadness, of sorrow: Every
emotion people come to know You shared with me. And even though I may never Feel your arms around me, I feel your heart beating.
Like a lullaby, Singing me to sleep And your spirit giving me a safe haven Protecting me and nurturing me Preparing me of
things to come. Sometimes the journey of life pulls souls apart. And yes, I had to go on to another place. I wish this were
a decision I could have made And I know you do too. Know this wherever you are: I will always remember that yours was the
first love, The first joy, the first soul I ever knew. you gave me the courage to go on in my journey I hope I can do the
same for you. Your heart will always call me to you. Love, Terran
I WON'T SAY GOODBYE, TODAY IS NOT THE DAY. I KNOW WE WILL MEET AGAIN, SOMEPLACE, SOME WAY. WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN,
SOME DAY.
THEREFORE YOU NOW HAVE SORROW; BUT I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN AND YOUR HEART WILL REJOICE, AND YOUR JOY NO ONE WILL TAKE FROM
YOU. John 16:22
I will not walk with him again
beside a mountain stream;
Or down a quiet woodland path
Sharing all his dreams.
I will not hear his special laugh
Or know his teasing ways;
No secrets shared, no looking for
His smile to light my days.
I will not see the sparkle of
His large expressive eyes,
That sometimes cried and sometimes held
The stars that fill the skies.
I will not hear, "I love you, Mom,
Though sometimes I don't show it;"
But through the years that quickly passed,
Somehow I'd always know it.
I will not hear him tease his sister
As he laughs with glee;
He won't be there for picnics,
How hard that is for me.
I will not hear his music
While he (loudly) sings along;
I won't discuss with him again
The merits of a song.
i will not see him "digging in"
To all his favorite meals;
Nor laugh or cry or hold him
Through all the things he feels.
I will not feel his special hugs
And hold him in my arms;
Nor be manipulated by
His smile...his talk...his charm.
now he walks with angels and
the pain he knew has ceased;
Now its God who holds him close
In never-ending peace.
But though he's gone, within my heart
Are precious memories of
These special things...surrounded by
A mother's endless love.
please say My Child's Name
"The mention of my child's name may bring tears to my eyes, But it never fails to bring music to my ears..."
If you are really my friend,let me hear the music of his name! It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul!
my Mom Lies
My Mom, she tells a lot of lies
She never did before.
From now until she dies,
she'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mom how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mom how she is,
She'll say, "I'm alright".
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mom how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see
nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mom how she is,
"I'm fine, umm well, I'm coping".
For God's sake Mom, just tell the truth
just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.
I am Here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say,You're lucky to get in here, Mom
With all the lies you told!"
I LIE TO MYSELF
I lie to myself
reality hurts to much
I avoid the things that trigger pain
I use it as my crutch
I pretend inside my mind
That life is just the same
Then it hits me with full force again
I am playing a silly game
I keep my feelings hid
Push them deep within my heart
I start to cry and wish to die
I am close to falling apart
i wear that lonely mask
thinking it hides this pain
Tears flow from underneath
Life remains the same
I wish to be free
I scream and demand
Losing you has changed my life
No one can understand
no one not even me
I struggle with words to find answers reading and writing my pain
the pages grow blurred before eyes that are filled with tears and tired from this crushing emotional drain
the relief that comes from the writing Parallels what I feel when I read to open myself to the torture of loss seems to
another this unbearable need there's no pleasure in life at this moment
its an effort to get through the day these pages filled with anguish and pain drain my weary soul memories flood my heart
my mind broken and tattered beside myself with grief
alone again but to feel your breath brush my cheek would make me feel whole again
and if my tears build a bridge to ride the rainbow till heavens light fills my eyes and once gain I will smile for I too
will be home. Edit Text
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My place in this world was at his side Edit Text
Terran had this picture taken by child life Julie
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its the only picture i have of me and him together because its usually me taking pictures Edit Picture
Beside you always
We follow the river down into the stream
That's where my dream began
I left my worries to the people who stare
And dreamed without a care
* That (yes) I'd always be beside you
To watch the day and night
And we listen to the sunrise
And feel it's growing light
And peace will come inside so quiet
Wherever we're going, I don't know
For a million years our love keeps growing
The mystery deepens, day by day
But trust my love, and hear me say
Peace will come inside so quiet
And peace will come inside so quiet Edit Text
No end in sight
head on her knees tears roll down her face
the days long with no end in sight
the chairs she has sat the beds they shared the floors she's paced
tubes wires endless frustrations
tall short young and old enter their room white coats flapping in flight
no end in sight
tears stroll down their cheeks as they hug each other gathering strength from the warmth they share. words she does not
want to hear come from the mouths of the white coats from strangers from friends. tears shed in this room and others tears
for her special child tears for her broken heart
no end in sight
then in an instant all is changed no more warmth to gather strength replaced with coldness and sadness. White coats now
black as they take the frustrations from her sight she longs for the warmth. Words exchanged sadness shared
she longs for the chairs the bed they shared the floors she paced the tubes and wires the endless frustrations tears again
roll down her cheeks but no warmth comforts her no joy fills her heart only sadness and darkness. For her child is no longer
here in an instant the end is in her sight.
My special angel in Heaven
pictures of you i carry in my heart I close my eyes to see you when the world gets dark Memories of you i carry in my
soul i wrap them close around me when the nights get cold
When they ask me how i am doing I'd say just fine
but the truth is baby your always on my mind
not a day goes by that i don't think of you after all this time your still with me deep with in my heart and soul
somehow you remain locked so deep inside baby not a day goes by when your not in my mind. i still wait for the phone in
the middle of the night thinking you might call me if your dreams dont turn out right and it still amazes me that i lie here
in the dark wishing you were here next to me with your head against my heart how I wish I could turn back time and take back
space would you have stayed baby could you have stayed
oh baby if they could read my mind not a day goes by that i don't think of you because of you I am who i am today because
you were so special i was special if i could take back time if i could turn them away would I now that your free would you
come back to me
Minutes to turn hours and the hours to days seems its been forever since you went away and i began to feel this way not
a day goes by after all this time your still with me some how you remain locked so deep inside baby oh baby not a day goes
by your in my heart your in my soul baby
Fly my baby fly and be free but save some time baby save some time for me.
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